Broken Promises!!

I promised that i will love you more than you do with yourself, i promised that i will fill your life with each existing color, i promised you will never miss love in your life, i promised you will never long for love and care anymore, i made all those promises which i possibly could for you! I never thought of hurting you, i can't even think of it. I used to think i was all able to be as transparent as i could. So that you could know how much i feel for you, how much i adore you, how much i care for you.. How much i LOVE you..!! But i was wrong.. I wasn't showing you how much i love you, my expressions weren't enough to let you know that i can do anything for you. You still think that i can even think of leaving you like this. And now i was thinking that's where i lose it, that's where my love got defeated. But no.. That's not my love's defeat.. It can not lose like this.. My love for you is above all this. The only thing which betrayed me is my expressing nature. If i couldn't make you feel what i actually feel for you then its not my love which failed, its my way of expressing my love. So now i'm determined.. I'll let you know in each and every possible way how much i love you. I know that way you would be able to gain your lost trust over me once again! I know things would change between us, they will have to.

Just Want to Hold You Tight

 Today, i find myself helpless..so miserable..!! I wanted to spend those playful days of summer kidding with you.. I wanted to enjoy those ever cherishing time of winters cuddling with you..i wanted to share that experienced yet painful fall of world with you..!! 
I wanted you to be part of my those kiddish tricks..i wanted you to kiss my eye lashes gently when my parents upset me after bad results...i wanted you to hold my hand when i leave this world..tears in eyes.. Your eyes..full of memories..memories of our days..days when the only lost thing were the toys..i wanted you to be with me when i will be losing the whole world.. at my end.. I wanted you to be with me from the starting till the end.. I just wanted to hold you tight and never let you go.. :'(